Biggest Loser!

Tracy is finally off the show!! While I'm sure she is a nice person in her regular life, on the show she seemed to be a bit nuts. She has since lost a lot more weight and looks fantastic, no matter who you are that is a big accomplishment, so good for her.

I am still a little sad Abby is gone, although I'm sure she is doing great things, I think she is now publicly speaking to various groups about her tragedy. For those of you who don't know, Abby was a contestant on BL who lost her husband, 2 week old son, and 5 year old daughter in a car crash 5 miles from their home, the person who hit them was going over 100 miles an hour.
After all this she is one of THE most positive people I have ever seen. She is so inspiring for me. Abby was also on Ellen today and said "Even in your darkest hour, there is always hope" What an awesome person!


On another note, Thanksgiving is just around the corner, hopefully by then I will be down a total of 20lbs(or more) so that's about 7 more pounds in about 3 1/2 weeks. Then hopefully by Christmas I will be 40-50lbs down. I know that is A LOT, but in the next few weeks I'm hoping to really push myself and watch my food intake. Even though I have not made a huge dent in the scale I can definitely feel a difference in my body, in the way I feel and the way my clothes fit. I just feel so much more confident, like I can anything I set my mind to.


Well, its off to bed for me. Cleaning tomorrow. Also, going to try and sit down and make a menu for our next 2 weeks-just for dinner though not all meals, since usually Josh and I aren't together during the day throughout the week since he has school.

1 month and 13lbs down.

I have decided to make a difference in my own life. I have spent most of mine doing things for other people, making sure they were happy, but now its my turn. I get to focus on me!





Josh has been so helpful with my training and change in food! We try hard not to have any temptations for me in the house, luckily he's a very healthy eater!
So far I'm down 13lbs! It hasn't been nearly as difficult as I thought it would be, the hardest part for me has been the working out regularly.
I've gotten into a routine now, so I just go and feel great while I'm there and afterwords.

My goal is to lose around 75-100 pounds. And to walk the Country Music 1/2 Marathon in Nashville,TN-(http://nashville.competitor.com/) which is in April! I am very excited to add this to my list of accomplishments, its something I've always wanted to do, but honestly never had the confidence.

I log everything on www.sparkpeople.com which is a free site where you can enter your goals, join teams, get great information, and it also has a free recipe database. It's AWESOME! I don't know what I would do without it!

I am also reading "Secrets of a Former Fat Girl" by Lisa Delaney




This is one fantastic book! Lisa gives some great advice on how to become a former fat girl!

My favorite is:
INO-Its not an option. When I want to stop the treadmill, when I want to eat a big fat cheeseburger, I just tell myself-INO, ITS NOT AN OPTION!

Here's to becoming a former fat girl!

Old or maybe just old fashioned

When did everything get so complicated? When did life turn into this never ending contest to keep up with someone else. "Keeping up with the Jones' " kind of attitude.
When did people start judging you for not having the latest trends?-either clothes, cars, jewelry, hair, even down to the decor in your own home.
When did everyone start caring SO much about what other people think, even if it makes them completely miserable?
When did what someone else was doing become any of our business?

I feel like sometimes that this world has been turned upside down. People have no morals, no self respect, no regard for anyone else but themselves.

When did it become a crime to try and help someone? People get so defensive, when all your trying to do is be a nice person and help them.
When did it become completely acceptable to flick someone off for the slightest things?
When did a text message become more important than a LIFE?

So many questions with no answers.

I know times, they are a changin, I get it-but sometimes it disgusts me.


Call me old fashioned, but I still believe in smiling at people I pass, men holding the doors open for women-hell anyone holding a door open for anyone else; I still believe that elders should be respected-when I say respected I don't mean we should feel sorry for them, I mean respected-for the hardships they have had in their lives, for their wisdom, for their honesty-I also still believe that we should SHOW respect-you remember that whole ma'am and sir thing?
I still believe that women should cross their legs, I believe GOD should be kept in our lives, in our schools and on our money

I believe that EVERYONE should remove their hats, shut the hell up and put their hands over their hearts for the Star Spangled Banner.

I believe in GOD.
I believe in prayer.

I believe in love at first sight.

I believe in supporting our military at home or away.

I believe that once in a while-we need to be taken down a notch-some a few notches....


The purpose of this is not to piss anyone off, or change anyone's mind.

I was just thinking about a lot of things, and maybe you agree maybe you don't-that's your choice. Either way, I felt it needed to be shared.

Whether you think you can, or think you can't, you're right." -- HENRY FORD

I have decided to make a life change. I want to lose weight, I want to get healthy! I read a book that really changed the way I viewed food (Skinny Bitch is the book) it states some truths, and some I'm not so sure about-but the point is it really made me think differently. It's true you are what you eat.

The point of the book is to help women lose weight and also become vegan- it basically "leaks" dirt little secrets-however it's not gonna stop me from eating meat or dairy-sorry I'm sure it's healthy and great, but it's just not for me. But I have decided to make some changes.

I really do not like all the hormones and pesticides that are put in/on the things that we put into our bodies-I really think it totally and completely effects our body chemistry and possibly in a negative way.

So Josh and I have made a somewhat mutual decision(mostly me) to eat as organically as possible. It is VERY expensive to buy organic meat, but I at least want to try or buy locally and not some big chain. Having grown up around farms and personally knowing many farmers my whole life-I feel that it is very important to support our local economy and support those who depend on their farms for their livelihood. We have already started scouting out places in Indiana(where we are moving to next week) such as farmer's markets, natural food stores etc..

We went grocery shopping last night and we couldnt afford the organic eggs-so we got the cage free ones they are only about 60 cents more than the regular eggs we buy and they honestly taste better. I know that no one regulates "natural" or "cage free" like the gov't does "organic" but I felt like it was a better choice-plus the "organic" eggs were almost $5. We bought a lot of fruit and veggies that were organic they were no more than the canned ones and we got more for our money!

I just wanted to share my first step to a healthier hopefully skinnier me.
I think I can, I think I can.

Molly and the cone

Our dog Molly got spayed a little over a week ago, she also got her back dew claws removed. All seemed ok other than we couldn't keep her from jumping up on the couch or anything. We had to take her back to the vet for what we thought was going to be just her getting her stitches out of her legs where her claws were, instead we got a cone and some anti-biotics apparently little Miss Molly had been licking her incisions when we weren't looking. In front of us she never touch them she could care less.
She hates her cone, so at first we were just putting it on here when we would leave or when we went to bed, but now her belly is looking worse, so she now has to wear it all the time.

She doesn't look too miserable in this picture-I had a treat in my hand



She is so miserable with it on :( I feel so bad for her bc she just lays around after we put her on it, she doesnt like to walk she runs into everything including our legs all the furniture everything! She will get it off on Monday and get her stitches taken out then, hopefully she won't be scarred for life-I know you're thinking I'm crazy, but I totally believe that dogs have emotions... another post :)

I wonder

what it would be like sometimes if we hadn't found each other what we would be like where we would be. I honestly think that I would probably be alone more miserable than ever-sad, I know, but I think it would be true.
When Josh and I started dating I was just starting to get some confidence back from my last completely destructive relationship with my ex fiance, I'd had enough and I was gone and never looking back. I did just that Josh and I were a love at first sight kind of deal-even though we were both to scared to admit it.
After being together only a short time-about a month I was watching the news and saw that my ex fiance had been murdered. It was such a shocker and I had a million different feelings. At first I really wasn't sure what to think, so I didn't I just called and talked to Josh and told my parents. As the days past I realized that if things hadn't changed if I was still with him, I would have been there-he was robbed and the guy that robbed- him, his 2 brothers and his cousin got a total of $7 off of all of them together.
His family had a service for him, I didn't go, I didn't feel like I needed to, though we were engaged and were together for a long time, I was never close with his family, or really any of his friends. My friends tried to get me to go, I felt so guilty for not wanting to, in my mind that part of my life was over it was done and I had no desire to re-visit it, so I didn't......

About a month after all of this my love, my fiance at this point was going to deploy to Iraq didn't know exactly when or for how long-it was def one of the scariest times in my life-I thought great, awesome, wonderful I found the love of my life and he's leaving and may not come back and there is nothing I can do. We got through it, got married over R&R after being a part for 10 months-that made it interesting for sure. About 4 months later my husband, Josh came home on his birthday from Iraq-talk about a great birthday present! We got to spend our first Holidays together(we starting dating in July and he deployed in September)...it was definitely an adjustment though since we had never lived together or really been together that long. It's all worked out great though :)

Here are some pictures throughout our journey together so far :)


*At the Zoo before Josh deployed August 2007


*September 2007 in Gatlinburg-our first trip together-about 2 weeks before he deployed

*July 24th-Our wedding Day


*Our "honeymoon" in TX seeing Josh's family -this one is from Port Aransas Beach

*November 13th-Josh's bday and also his homecoming from Iraq :)

*Christmas @ Opryland-if you've never been you gotta go its so gorgeous :)


*Christmas @ the Cumberland in Clarksville,TN


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